Saturday evening Mike & I met our old neighbors, Terry and Lauren from Maplewood at Sea Island. It was so great to see her and catch up on life. They moved to Austin in 1991 and we lost touch with them. I always thought of her and wanted to find her. When I got a Facebook account, she was one of the first people I looked up. I found her daughter Lauren and she got Terry & I hooked up. We used to sit out front and watch the kids play or they would come over and play in our back yard. Good neighbors are a blessing and Terry was an excellent one. We have been talking back and forth for awhile and she and Lauren were coming to town for the Billy Joel / Elton John concert so we met for dinner. I'm so glad we got to do that! Lauren is such a sweet girl - you did an excellent job, Terry! Remember, we are going to get together when you are on summer break. If you can't come here we will meet half way OK?
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Sunday, March 22, 2009
Facebook is good for finding old friends
Saturday evening Mike & I met our old neighbors, Terry and Lauren from Maplewood at Sea Island. It was so great to see her and catch up on life. They moved to Austin in 1991 and we lost touch with them. I always thought of her and wanted to find her. When I got a Facebook account, she was one of the first people I looked up. I found her daughter Lauren and she got Terry & I hooked up. We used to sit out front and watch the kids play or they would come over and play in our back yard. Good neighbors are a blessing and Terry was an excellent one. We have been talking back and forth for awhile and she and Lauren were coming to town for the Billy Joel / Elton John concert so we met for dinner. I'm so glad we got to do that! Lauren is such a sweet girl - you did an excellent job, Terry! Remember, we are going to get together when you are on summer break. If you can't come here we will meet half way OK?
Girl's Night
If we tied Sandy's hands behind her back, she wouldn't be able to talk!
Irma being a brave girl, trying her hand at card making. She did an excellent job!
Shirley learning something important, I'm sure.
Pebbles was feeling a little neglected and was waiting patiently for someone to love on her.
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Thank you
I know no one ever said being a parent would be easy. I will say I am simply exhausted. I am reading a book called "Moments for Families with Prodigals". (Thank you for the recommendation, Nan) It is a devotional that is filled with so much encouragement and hope. One of the first things I read that hit me right in the heart said "Stop mourning the child you thought you had (or thought they should be) and start loving the child you have." I don't have the book in front of me so I may not have the quote exactly correct. I immediately felt convicted. I am committing myself to loving Hayley right where she is at and continuing to pray specifically for her heart to soften and that she renews her relationship with Jesus.
I told her that she had an amazing group of prayer warriors praying for her safe return home. I know she doesn't appreciate that now, but hopefully someday she will realize just how mighty our God truly is and acknowledge the power of prayer. You have my deepest thanks for your prayers and encouraging words.
God bless you!
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
My thoughts on forgiveness
WOW! What a cleansing thing it turned out to be for me to be able to let go of resentments I had carried around like ugly baggage for so many years. Was it an easy journey to learn to forgive? No, it wasn't. It takes lots of prayer and work to learn to forgive and place that load of baggage at the foot of the cross where Jesus shed His blood for me. A question I started asking myself over and over was, "Can I still call myself a Christian and not forgive ________ for ________?" No matter what name or offense I filled the blanks in with, my answer always came up "NO". I eventually got to the point that the question was no longer necessary and forgiveness is becoming a much more natural practice for me. Do I always wake up eager to forgive someone who hurt me the day before? No, I don't. But after I deal with my stubbornness and let go, I feel peace and can go on with my day and not worry about unloading my hurt on an innocent bystander in my life. (I can so relate to the saying "Hurt people, hurt people.") A funny thing about the loving act of forgiveness is that the people we forgive sometimes don't even know they have done something to be forgiven for let alone that they have been forgiven! I have said things like "_____ doesn't deserve my forgiveness." or "I can never forgive _____ for what they did." The truth is that none of us deserve the forgiveness from our Heavenly Father but we are given it anyway. The truth is so simple yet so hard at the same time.
I know I have rambled - I don't have the gift of putting my thoughts into words real well but my heart is as genuine as can be. I am writing this because you may be holding on to a hurt that is eating way at you and coming between you and our loving God. Maybe you have something rattling around in your heart that you haven't forgiven yourself for. My prayer for you is that these words plant a seed in your heart and forgiveness begins growing in you and that you nurture it with prayer and reflection on God's loving act of sending His son to the cross to die for you and me.
Next, I ask for your sincere prayers please:
Tonight, our 17 year old daughter left the house and told Mike & I she has no idea when or if she will be returning. Some of you know what has been going on in our home for the past 3 years or so. It has been a challenge to say the least. Boundaries have been an issue with us. Today she left because of a series of events that had piled up and exploded with a lot of angry and hurtful words being said by all 3 parties involved. I have apologized for my part in the recent incident but she is not ready to forgive. I have to be OK with that and know God has her best interest in mind and is working on softening her heart as I write this. His timing is perfect. I'm praying she remains safe and I have hope that she will return and we will be able to work out our differences and she will come to respect the boundaries we have set.
Know therefore that the LORD your God is God; he is the faithful God, keeping his covenant of love to a thousand generations of those who love him and keep his commands.”- Deuteronomy 7:9
God bless you brothers and sisters!
Robyn
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Celebrate Recovery
A couple of times a year we have special music nights. Tonight, Greg Coplen came with his band to share his testimony and awesome music all written by him. They were so great and his testimony provided me with the reminder I sometimes need that God is always there. I am the one who hides from Him. All I have to do is reach out and He will take my hand every time I ask him to. But I have to ask! A line in one of his beautiful songs says "God am I, just a step away from going crazy? God are You, just a prayer away from coming to save me? Cause I’m lost, I’m lost." Although I still struggle and have the occasional set back (or relapse in 12-step terms) I am very thankful I am no longer lost. God found me long before I even knew about Him. What an awesome truth!
Come see us on Thursday nights at Concordia or Click here to find a Celebrate Recovery near you. It is a safe place.
New Mini Album & Lunch
Jesse being a total goof ball. He is such a great boss - I am so blessed!
Sunday, March 1, 2009
We are proud of our boy Matthew
Matthew started college in the fall of 2005. His freshman year was a bit of a party but we all know that happens sometimes. He ultimately ended up in San Antonio with a couple of roommates. He has been working full time as well as serving in the Army Reserves on top of attending UTSA full time. He is currently working towards a Criminal Justice degree. Law Enforcement is something Matthew has always had an interest in and it seemed natural for him to pursue.
A funny thing happened along the way. Matthew's full time job was a 911 dispatcher for a company that services Bexar County and other areas that do not have their own 911 systems. He took to it very quickly and always had a story to tell. Some funny but many were very sad. Shortly after he was released to take calls alone. He took a call that I believe changed his life. Just a few seconds into the call Matthew realized he was talking to the brother of a close friend of his that was waiting for a kidney transplant. The brother came home and found him dead in their home. For some reason, God decided Matthew was to take that call. I will never forget his call to me when he told me what happened. A mother never wants to hear that kind of pain in her child's voice. He said he handled the call well and then told his supervisor what had happened. I was very concerned about him after that day but he dusted himself off and went on to work in the dispatch office for several more months. I visited him at work once and he welcomed me to the room that "sucks the life out of you". I personally have no idea how someone can do that job - I would be so bad at it. He soon applied for another job with the company and was transferred to a local hospital to handle ambulance transports from the facility. He has enjoyed the job and they love having him around. While working at the hospital, he has been exposed to many aspects of the health care field and it has sparked a new interest. He put his bachelors degree on hold for a bit and went to school to be an EMT. This semester he is working towards being a Paramedic. We sometimes laugh when we talk about Matthew ending up in the medical field. Never in a million years would I have guessed this. It just shows how mighty God is. He will point us in the direction He wants us to go. I am proud of Matthew for identifying this and moving towards something he enjoys. He is still at the hospital but picks up extra shifts on an ambulance as much as possible and stays very busy.
He sometimes gets a little frustrated because a lot of his friends will be graduating this year but we tell him not to get discouraged and stay focused. While he is at home he hopes to pay off some loans and decide if he wants to continue working towards the Criminal Justice major when he returns to UTSA in the fall.